[It's my last six days in Thailand so please excuse this tender moment of personal reflection haaa!]
I've been so fortunate.
Let me elaborate:
1. venturing through unfamiliar parts of the globe
2. long awaited family time
3. new friendships [big ups to Tanya, Chris, Andrew, Russ, Finn, Astrid, Jens, Johnno, Lori, J.W., Jay, Nat, Lindsay, Emily, Carlos, Carl, Charlie, Ryan, George, Michaela, Michelle, Camilla, Johanna, Sebastian, DJ Gap and all the wonderful nameless encounters with locals and wanderers alike]
4. the best and most surprising friendship reunions [Veronica and Devin (and soon Beats!) take the cake]
I'm trying to balance the feeling of, "It's over now,"(in Thailand at least, as I am on my way to Istanbul, Turkey) with, "What's next?" What will the next chapter be? I mean - after the inevitable whirlwind of taking copious risks and chances, finding places to live and explore, talking to strangers who end up being best friends, figuring out a new routine and connecting with some pretty buried Thai roots. I've done some variation on this theme nearly a dozen times these past months and it's been the smooth, enjoyable part.
1. venturing through unfamiliar parts of the globe
2. long awaited family time
3. new friendships [big ups to Tanya, Chris, Andrew, Russ, Finn, Astrid, Jens, Johnno, Lori, J.W., Jay, Nat, Lindsay, Emily, Carlos, Carl, Charlie, Ryan, George, Michaela, Michelle, Camilla, Johanna, Sebastian, DJ Gap and all the wonderful nameless encounters with locals and wanderers alike]
4. the best and most surprising friendship reunions [Veronica and Devin (and soon Beats!) take the cake]
I'm trying to balance the feeling of, "It's over now,"(in Thailand at least, as I am on my way to Istanbul, Turkey) with, "What's next?" What will the next chapter be? I mean - after the inevitable whirlwind of taking copious risks and chances, finding places to live and explore, talking to strangers who end up being best friends, figuring out a new routine and connecting with some pretty buried Thai roots. I've done some variation on this theme nearly a dozen times these past months and it's been the smooth, enjoyable part.
My greatest fear is forgetting what I've learned. Which is, the new found ability to stop and have a conversation with a stranger, to appreciate the differences and find the commonalities. To party like the world is going to end every night of the week. To be able to breath deep and face the uncertainties and know that everything will be all right -- whatever all right looks like. To be able to change plans, when plans A, B & C don't pan out, and walk away feeling like plan D was the best of all.
I think in a word, it all comes down to buoyancy. Whatever I faced, I was able to bounce back, be in the moment and enjoy the day (mostly). I don't want to lose it.
I'm going to try hard.
xo,
emily wright
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